This week has been long one and its only Tuesday ! Yesterday I went to retake my math test. Yep i sucked the first time. There was this guy sitting next to me that was so frustrated he was cussing and throwing his stuff down. Now anyone that knows me this wasn't the best situation for me . They also know its just my luck ! So after trying to see if he was OK and being told not to talk I had to get outta there ! I left ! Nope not don yet just left ! I Felt so bad but this guy was not helping me and no one was helping him so ...... What the hell was I supposed to do? I took 2 yep 2 pills on the way home and still could not catch my breath. y anxiety had taken over sucks ! some day I will be song again to overcome these times when being weak just does not cut it !

Surreal

Tonight I did something I don't ever want to have to do again!!! My neighbors kitchen in her apt caught on fire. Thank god everyone is OK, but it really makes me think about things. Even more now that I can look back at it ! I didn't even have time to think about it. We opened the door and in we went she put out the fire and I went into her sons room he was still sound asleep.The other neighbor heard her fire alarm going off she came and got us the smoke so thick you could not see each other in the hallway. What a freaking rush though !! I'm thinking about now and it seemed like everyone was in slow motion, it seemed clearer that way. I guess it was slowed to not miss anything. I don't know well I am a little speechless still. Thank god that everyone is OK !!