Tuesday, August 17, 2010

These times !

These Times,

the hardest ones

faceing our mistakes

accepting our challenges

the struggles that got me here

confronting face to face

Pain, sorrow

love and loss

Given oppertuniities

to repair hearts of the littleest

most forgiving men you will ever meet!

a strong man of the house

no longer has to worry

Quiet giggles in the middle

will soon never stop

lil monkey, cute as ever
their smiles melt me all over

now with a new caretaker

a bond, it cant be broken

forgivness, support

strength, and love

most of all the ability to see past it all !!
some things I regret

not today or tomarrow
the future so bright its

going to be the best it could

possibly get

Mike, Roy, Dom and Casey

thank you !!

I love you


cant wait till they are snuggling with me

Saturday, May 15, 2010

This day be another day
Another day to put to rest
we sit here and listen to our thoughts
meaningless whispers to ourselves
taking to heart what others say
why do we care
I dont care what they think
I have to know the truth
in my heart it tells me
not what my mind is quietly saying
it does not know
how would it
how would they
they are not me
they dont know me
they never will
even try to
UNDERSTAND ME !!!

Tuesday, March 30, 2010

This week has been long one and its only Tuesday ! Yesterday I went to retake my math test. Yep i sucked the first time. There was this guy sitting next to me that was so frustrated he was cussing and throwing his stuff down. Now anyone that knows me this wasn't the best situation for me . They also know its just my luck ! So after trying to see if he was OK and being told not to talk I had to get outta there ! I left ! Nope not don yet just left ! I Felt so bad but this guy was not helping me and no one was helping him so ...... What the hell was I supposed to do? I took 2 yep 2 pills on the way home and still could not catch my breath. y anxiety had taken over sucks ! some day I will be song again to overcome these times when being weak just does not cut it !

Wednesday, March 3, 2010

Surreal

Tonight I did something I don't ever want to have to do again!!! My neighbors kitchen in her apt caught on fire. Thank god everyone is OK, but it really makes me think about things. Even more now that I can look back at it ! I didn't even have time to think about it. We opened the door and in we went she put out the fire and I went into her sons room he was still sound asleep.The other neighbor heard her fire alarm going off she came and got us the smoke so thick you could not see each other in the hallway. What a freaking rush though !! I'm thinking about now and it seemed like everyone was in slow motion, it seemed clearer that way. I guess it was slowed to not miss anything. I don't know well I am a little speechless still. Thank god that everyone is OK !!

Thursday, February 25, 2010

My Hand Love , Your Sexy Body

Un fortunatly I missed this week when our journal entry was about six words stories. I read the examples but thought my computer just wouldnt open them. I decided to try anyway and see what I came up with.

P.S. its a little bit more fun with a French Accent you know "Pepe Le Pew" ha


My Hand Love, Your Sexy Body

My Love,
My Sexy Love,
Sexy Body, My Love
Hand Love, Sexy Body
My Love, Sexy body
Body Sexy, My Love
Love Sexy Body,
My Hand
LOVE

Friday, February 19, 2010

My Happy Place


This is a place that no one knows. the location I keep a secret. I feel safe and warm here like sitting on the fuzzy shag rug, in front of a fire on a cold winter night. With Books in tall handmade wood bookshelves on either side, a mirror hanging right above it with fake marble patterns etched around each corner. On the mantle sat pictures of my uncles, ants, cousins, niecesand nephews. All in colored frames, different shapes and sizes, grandpa's "Lefty's do it Right" coffee cup, sat proud Right in the middle.
When I go outside to walk around; I am suddenly blinded by the shimmering rays of sunlight just peeking over the horizon. It's rays sparkling like diamonds off the tiny little drops of dew gathered on each blade of the greenest grass I had ever seen. Softness I have not felt since snuggling with Whiskers, my very first kitten. I hear birds over my shoulder, chirping songs in perfect harmony. So delightful and charming as they fly all around me. I walk up the beautiful old cobble stone paths, broken and crumbling into tiny little pieces. with weeds growing in, on and around them the wrapped around the all the old red brick houses. On the front porches were grandma's knitting this Christmas's sweaters, while keeping one eye the weather. The grand kids in the front and running around back to play games like hacky - sack, tag and of course cops and robbers. Dads in the garage fixing that old rusty Chevy Bel-Arie. Grandpa' trying to finish that darn horse puzzle, he's already finished it three times before .
This feeling of comfort you cant imitate, like your first kiss with your prom date, so happy, warm and soothing. All the school programs or played they never were late or complained of the delay, waiving and clapping trying to get close to take pictures pusing and shovig the whole way. My Mother so caring and loving no matter what, now and forever.
This place that I speak of is more than a place, its' got a purpose, a home, its very own space. A spot for everyone or if you want all alone. Wherever you want it, put it, find it or hide it.
Keep your Happy Place very close to your heart !!



Sunday, February 14, 2010

My first !

Today is valentines day and I am home spending the day with the only boys I want to, My 3 wonderful and amizing sons Roy, Dom and Casey. I hope everyone has a great day with whomever they choose to spend it with.